Where should I start?
T'was friday, 5 pm at Dr.Murjani Field at Banjarbaru, South Borneo with my sister and two of her friends that suddenly came unexpected. We was eating 'pentol goreng' when the crowds came.
The crowds mostly consist of girls and only one boy who was holding and playing guitar. The first thing was, that one of them said "hey, all of 'em is my junior!". 
'no' I say to my self, 'I almost college student'. But, she must be referring it to my sister and friends. I was just smiling-laughing. . .
Then they started to sang 'MAU DIBAWA KEMANA HUBUNGAN KITAAAA?!' confidencely.
Oh, so 'ALAY' but It's so amusing that I can't stand to laugh out loud. They attracted peoples eyes. People around us started to staring and looking from where the cranky voice came.
My sister, of course, enjoyed the 'street artist' act and she just smile and having fun with her friends as if she was in some kind of café or something (hello! Earth to Rosi! You are simply beside the public highway!).
And me, nothing but just kept laughing crazily.
Then they asked us for what song that we wanted. I said to them crankily 'bengawan solo'. Haha!
Later, they sang Vierra song : Bersamamu. And the excitement repeated again.
After that, they ask for 'billing'. I only had 3000 rupiah (beside the 50000 rupiah :D). So, i gave it to them. They looked so happy and grateful for that.
What I adore and mark of them is: they could enjoy and having fun with that! I really envy that! I wish that someday I could do s'thing like that with my high school friends before everything is over. Huhu. . .
I.REALLY.WISH!
Well, after so long time and I haven't doing the whole thing relate to blogging that I ever planned before like blog walking and make social life in it.... oh, I still can't.... Don't have time or spirit. Maybe that's the reason I call my life suck. It suck! I don't have any spirit to doing everything that used to be my obsession. Am I changing?
Yep, changing. Turn into someone far from the start.
My only hope is that I could take the spirit back to my life, try to do what I think good for me, myself and peoples.
I miss being different, miss being the old me and my whole complicated-but-good rules in my life.
I'm not trying to say that there is a subject. But, there is this case. I know who I am. And maybe there are words unspokken....
I still belive that I could change into someone better. But not now me.
Because of something, I re-open my blog. I'll try to keep it, not delete it.
I was just so stupid to stop blogging because of someone. Stupid. And now, i'm trying to comeback to my interest, no matter what people says.
This year I've done so many things. Good things and bad things as well. Try to make a list:
1. Join Kompasiana.com
2. Join Twitter (www.twitter.com/sauqina)
3. Got better rank at class (Fulfilled!)
4. Go to Semarang for Science Writing (I am one of 10 finalist)
5. Not win the debate at my last battle (Failed...)
6. Read 'Catatan Seorang Demonstran' Soe Hoek Gie
7. Read the stupidity of Raditya Dika (Heeeiiii, I am a fan!!!)
8. Lot of other things!!! Can't remember!!
Well, lot things happen. And I just so stupid to not make some kind of notes about my daily life. I just realize that, perhaps, diary is important, to makes us remember of somethings: bittersweet of life.
And by the way, I took a wrong path.... And I'm so sick of it. Now, I have to pay the price. Something hard, and bitter... Something that told me that I should really see things clearly, that everything always have the other side. And in my case, it have a very bad side.
Hope it won't affect my personality. I don't wanna be someone gloomy anymore, I wanna be cheerful person. No matter what happen around, how bad the weather, or the people.
And I'm trying to forgive people, who were mean to me lately, because they just don't know about the truth.
Aaaaand,I'll learn how to blogging! Yeah! Stupid me don't know how to blogging.
